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Sep. 30th, 2007 | 10:23 pm
mood: coldcold

how's everybody doing
well i hope its well because i am doing just fantastic here in good ole new mexico.
my new friends are a hoot and i can't wait to make more, even though they'll be leaving in january to go back to utah, which makes me upset.
but what can ya do.
what i need to do is find friends that wanna party, go to movies and such with me, then i will be 100% happy.
but work is good
liking that so far, even though i've been sick for a bit
but im always sick, nothing new.
and yeah, i still miss everyone back home and cant wait to go there and see everyone
but ya know, it'll come by quicker than i think
its almost october!
tomorrow, crazy
2 months!

and yes im counting down
see ya, love ya, bye.

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so yeah...

Sep. 15th, 2007 | 01:31 pm
mood: calmcalm

sooooo i got th ejob i was interviewed for
im now a Call lady, or whatever you'd call it for JCPennys
and you get a 40% discount on all store merchandise
im so excited for that

but i start training on monday-friday then monday and tuesday of the following week
im excited
and hopefully it'll make october and november fly by!
cuz once december hits im gonna be having anxiety attacks everyday til i get home haha

anyway, so a few things.
im thinking about a tounge piercing, i've always wanted one and i would get a plastic ball so it wouldn't ruin my teeth.
and a tatoo, either on my foot or the back of my neck, probably my foot. I want to get m zodiac sign, so taurus. I'd either get Taurus and a cool bull sign thing, or Courtney then the sign thing.
I dont know how lame it is to get your name tattooed on yourself though ahahahah
sounds lame.
LAST BUT NOT LEAST in a few months, probably spring-ish i want to get a puppy!
i've always watned one to call my own, and i would train it and everything
im thinking small here, nothing big so when i do get an apartment its not tough having a dog.

so what do you think
good choices?
even if you say no i'll most likely do it anyway hahaha
unless there's a really good explaination behind it that talks me outta it
but that's that

and now im gonna go paint my nails.

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i haven't written in this in forever...

Sep. 9th, 2007 | 04:11 pm
location: My Bedroom
mood: accomplishedaccomplished
music: Its Not True- William Fitzsimmons

so i've decided i wanted to start again. Live journal used to be my favorite and then myspace and facebook came along and i neglected it! My life has changed DRASTICALLY since i last wrote in here. I dropped out of CMU, with no care in the world. I then went to Delta, dropped outta there too. Yeah talk about waste of money, i'm probably the most selfish person i know. I put my mom and the rest of my family through hell and i feel like a pile of garbage when i look back. My mom kicked me out of my house BECAUSE i partied pretty much every night. I didn't go an hour without being high, and at nigh it was usually accommodated by alcohol. I was out of control...and i have no idea how my mom forgave me. I said some pretty cruel things to that woman and she didn't have to forgive me. We're the prime definition of tough love, and that lady is insane for forgiving me, but i thank her for that immensely. Anyway, now i live in Rio Rancho, New Mexico with my 30 yr old cousin Jenny, and her husband and 3 yr old son. I love it here, its such a change of pace. I miss my friends back home so much but this was the best decision i've made in a year....or ever for that sake. I dont know where i'd end up if i continued living in Saginaw. Now im happy and doing good and finding a job as we speak and gonna go to school, and actually stay there. Im really fucking excited.

this was enough for me cuz my ADHD doesnt allow me to stay interested in one thing for long amounts of time...except for music. Weird

anyway gotta run.

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Oct. 22nd, 2006 | 01:45 am

i miss my fucking friends.
i dont care if i come home a lot
missing even ONE weekend seems like a fucking lifetime
a lot of my friends are at home
you want me to name them?

libby (we'll col and her are CLOSE to home)

and just fuckloads more
and i miss the ones away at college too!

don't get me wrong
i have made friends here
actually, good friends too.
but still i dont care
i still miss my other friends
and i hate when people tell me that i should get to know more people here or something.
i KNOW people here
and i dont care
i'm not gonna just FORGET about my other friends
i talk to them all the time
and get SUPER jealous when they're all together having a good time
and im sitting here like hmph.

yes, im complaining
but its my journal and i can!

ok now about me.

i skipped class today
because i didnt feel good.
i hate having stomach aches, absolutely can't stand it! so i skipped.
i love my suitemate kristen
seriously, wish i would have roomed with her
her and heather are good friends
and will always be my friends.

and i wont talk about my roomate.

i met this guy named lance
he's nothing short of amazing
he sings R&B...and has the most amazing style

wanna guess what else?

and has a boyfriend


i get dizzy a lot
is that bad?
yeah i think it is

anyway im supposed to be sleeping right now
but i slept 12 hours last night, and had like a 2 hour nap this afternoon
i was super tired
and now im not
but tomorrow i will be
its a neverending cycle, let me tell you

im out though

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Sep. 27th, 2006 | 09:53 am

holy shit i just wrote the longest livejournal and fucked it up somehow
how mad am i right now.
how mad.

im at CMU right now
and i dont want to be here
i love my suitemates
love my mom like no other
i hate classes
i go home every weekend, just because
i get homesick a lot
the responsibility is to much, but eventually i'll be fine.
the partying is crazy
i yelled at a kid on my floor and he's scared of me.

that was basically the jist of everything but with lots of details and shit.
i just got mad and all pissy
so im not writing anymore.


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Jun. 6th, 2006 | 02:51 pm

hey guess what
iii graduated!
im sure i'll have pictures up in the ole myspace soon.
im kinda over internet talk right now though
i'd rather drink and be in person with people

baccalaurette, i have no idea how to spell that, was amazing, we have such a talented class, EVERYONE who sang was amazing...well almost..ahaha.

anyway so uhm yeah done with swan valley for just about EVER and i'm pumped with that. Met some more people who live in herrig with me, GOD DAMN ITS GONNA BE FUN! The choir thing is gonna be amazing, and i'm in the music hall. Jill doesnt live to far from me and some guys from sv live in sacs connected to herrig, so that's gonna be a fucking blast. i can't wait basically.

saw all my gays last night again, well not all but a majority. They're all coming to the graduation party for al il then they have to go to caro and party all night haha, oh well. I haven't been hanging out with them for like forever!

i miss danni and adrieanna, i haven't seen them in like 2 days, well besides graduation, and i miss them. :(


i need to find a job, for money, i like money. and i'll have a computer at home finally cuz of grad. party W00T it'll be all mine!

ok im done babbling now.

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May. 25th, 2006 | 08:28 am

american idol was really good last night
i mean really good
i like taylor
but i wanted katherine to win
but they'll both do amazingly
hahahahah the thing with clay and his little gay fan was amazing!!!
god it was good
i loved the singing and everything
and claudette won an award!

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i found this hilarious, how a 7 yr old explains sex.

Mar. 30th, 2006 | 04:29 pm

Little Johnny was 7 years old and like other boys his age rather curious. He had been hearing quite a bit about 'making out' from the older boys, and he wondered what it was and how it was done. One day he took his question to his mother, who became rather flustered. Instead of explaining things to Johnny, she told him to hide behind the curtains one night and watch his older sister and her boyfriend. This he did. The following morning, Johnny described EVERYTHING to his mother. "Sis and her boyfriend sat and talked for a while, then he turned off most of the lights. Then he started kissing and hugging her. I figured 'Sis must be getting sick, because her face started looking funny. He must have thought so too, because he put his hand inside her blouse to feel her heart, just the way the doctor would. Except he's not as smart as the doctor because he seemed to have trouble finding her heart. I guess he was getting sick too, because pretty soon both of them started panting and getting all out of breath. His other hand must have been cold because he put it under her skirt. About this time 'Sis got worse and began to moan and sigh and squirm around and slide down toward the end of the couch. This was when her fever started. I knew it was a fever, because Sis told him she felt really hot. Finally, I found out what was making them so sick-a big eel ;had gotten inside his pants somehow. It just jumped out of his pants and stood there, about 10 inches long, honest, anyway he grabbed it in one hand to keep it from getting away. When Sis saw it, she got really scared-her eyes got big, and her mouth fell open, and she started calling out to God and stuff like that. She said it was the biggest one she's ever seen; I should tell her about the ones down at the lake by our house! Anyway, Sis got brave and tried to kill the eel by biting its head off. All of a sudden she grabbed it with both hands and held it tight while he took a muzzle out of his pocket and slipped it over the eel's head to keep it from biting again. Sis lay back and spread her legs so she could get a scissor-lock on it and he helped by lying on top of the eel. The eel put up a hell of a fight. Sis started groaning and squealing and her boyfriend almost upset the couch. I guess they wanted to kill the eel by squashing it between them. After a while they both quit moving and gave a great sigh. Her boyfriend got up, and sure enough, they killed the eel. I knew because it just hung there, limp, and some of its insides were hanging out. Sis and her boyfriend were a little tired from the battle, but they went back to courting anyway. He started hugging and kissing her again. By golly, the eel wasn't dead! It jumped straight up and started to fight again. I guess eels are like cats- they have nine lives or something. This time, Sis jumped up and tried to kill it by sitting on it. After about a 35 minute struggle, they finally killed the eel. I knew it was dead, because I saw Sis's boyfriend peel its skin off and flush it down the toilet.

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Mar. 24th, 2006 | 05:05 pm


its so scary when you're in a situation like this and your horoscope is right..makes me think.

"Talk about stressed. You've been worried about a dear one for what seems like forever, and you're not ready to quit just yet -- especially because they're refusing to take your advice. The advice they asked for, by the way. Well, you can only do so much. Keep that in mind, and don't feel bad if they do something that you know won't help their cause. You can help others, but you can't live their lives for them. Sure, it's been said before, but it's true. "

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Mar. 15th, 2006 | 11:49 am

A "Wal-Mart" Diagnosis

One day, in line at a company cafeteria, Joe says to Mike behind
him, "My elbow hurts like hell. I guess I better see a doctor."

"Listen, you don't have to spend that kind of money," Mike replies.
"There's a diagnostic computer down at Wal-mart. Just give it a urine
and the computer will tell you what's wrong and what to do about it. It
ten seconds and costs ten dollars... a lot cheaper than a doctor."

So Joe puts a urine sample in a small jar and takes it to
Wal-mart. He deposits ten dollars, and the computer lights up and asks
for the urine sample. He pours the sample into the slot and waits.
Ten seconds later, the computer ejects a printout: You have tennis elbow.
Soak it in warm water and avoid heavy activity. It will improve
in two weeks. Thank you for shopping @ Wal-mart.

That afternoon, while thinking how amazing this new technology was,
Joe began wondering if the computer could be fooled. When he got home, he
mixed some tap water, a stool sample from his dog, urine samples from his
and daughter and his own sperm sample for good measure, and hurried to
Wal-mart before it closed, eager to check the results.

He deposited ten dollars, poured in his concoction, and awaited
the results. The computer lights up, and ten seconds later prints the

1. Your tap water is too hard. Get a water softener kit. (Aisle 9)

2. Your dog has ringworm. Bathe him with anti-fungal shampoo. (Aisle 7)

3. Your daughter has a cocaine habit. Get her into rehab.

4 Your wife is pregnant, Twins. They aren't yours. Get a lawyer.

5. If you don't stop playing with yourself, your elbow will never get

Thank you for shopping @ Wal-mart !

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